(In)Sane-First Love

In my earlier writings,I told you about my feelings regarding some mysterious yet sensitive issues..My today's blog is totally atypical...It is about my first love..Though i have fallen in love quite often and that too very quickly.But,no matter how hard i experiment i cannot forget my first love..I think no one can ever forget his/her first love...If someone claim they have forgotten their first love,I bet they are lying...
Now,talking of me,each and every memory of and about my first love is still crystal clear in my mind..It's been a kind of tradition in my life that the thing that had happened to me occasionally actually turns out to be the thing that i want to stay with me forever in my life..Be in Facebook or this blog..:)

I remember,I was in class 9 when i joined this tution..There was a girl with nice hairs and a cute smile..I dont know if this has happened with anyone of you or not but there is something in the girls wearing spectacles that always makes me fall for them..But,to be very frank,that girl wearing spectacles did not excite me that much..

She used to come with her friend..Her friend left the tution after a week..One day in the midst of our class,she recieved one call..She asked for the permission and went out of the room..I did not pay any attention to it as i was busy wrangling my math problem.
Then,out of the blue,she opened the door and asked for the permission,from our stringent teacher, to take me out for a moment..The teacher nodded..

"My friend is on call and she want to talk to you ",she said..
  I was literally trembling at that time..
"Hello",that's all i managed to say at that point..Huh..
"My friend really likes you",the girl on the phone said prior her hand reached that red button on her cell phone..
I was numb at that moment..I had no idea what to say in such conditions at that stage of my life( by the way,now i have full idea)...
Then,abruptly,our teacher called for us..I was in all praise for my teacher at that moment who is persuing a "Gabbar" image for many of the students..The teacher turned out to be a knight in shining armour...

After the tution got over,she called for me..By that time,I was in full extol for myself..:))..
"I like you too",I said,even though i dont..
That night,i kept on thinking of her.Her talks were still lingering in my mind but,actually,I was trying to remember her face.
Next day,it was Sunday(test time),and we had our tution in the morning..
I did not take any mark of her during the time of the test..But,after the test got over we walked to each other..
The chocolate(Dairy Milk) was the first gift that i gave her that day..And a heart shaped,pink colored keyring was my first gift,,I wondered what the hell would i do with a pink colored keyring..No wonder again,I took it and kept in my pocket...

So,that is how my first love happened...

I fancy that after reading this you all will remember your first love,no matter if that is only fleetingly...
Until next time,it's bye from my side..
                          
            EXAMS TIME

God-Something Or Everything 2

After writing my first blog,I had butterflies flying in my stomach.To start the proceedings,i showcased my writing to my sister.Starting from my hairstyles to my clothes to my girlfriends and to many more myriad stuff,her appreciation is the thing i crave for.To put it in lucid language,she's the BOSS of my life.And to be frank,i feel elated being driven by the Boss like her...:))...
"The first nod of  positive reception has come",I thought when i saw my sister smiling..After that everyone else followed the Boss's command...Some "patted" me,others "totally agreed" with my stuff.Alias to the fact that light reaches our eyes prior to the sound of thunder during rain,a question that lights up among the sound of apperciation was "Am i confused about the existence of God???"...Ummmm....Maybe..
But I could not completely dispense this question,so i decided to ponder over it,all over again..

I belive in "Real" god,the one who orchestrate everything real around us i.e the "original"  trees,animals,sun,moon etc.I dont believe in "Fictional" god,the one who resides in temples,mosques etc.
I think family is the best place where you can raise your most paradoxical questions.I did exactly the same.
But,fortunately,i could not get any influential answer.So,here i am,pleading you all to give an answer.

Why are we,who claim to be his firm believers,are shearing those god created trees  for our profit..???
 What is ironical is the fact that we are not only obilerating his creations,we are also creating temples,mosques etc in place of those destructions...why we are doing so??
To worship "real god" ????Really???Well,i dont think so.I mean,how can we say that we are his followers when we are ourselves  devastating his identity which exists in the form of plantation also...??
Hold on,the sarcasm does not end here...We are killing and eating animals too..
We are being killed by We...
We and animals are also his creations...Right???
Then,why are we,in the name of god are hurting him...?
 These were just handful questions thati i have put infront of you.Numerous such questions can be further raised..

Second after second,day by day,we are going away from  the "Real God" and our proxemics with the "fictional God" is exuberating...At present(hopefully in near future also),I am a stiff believer of this "GURU MANTRA"...

"Neither i can kick  him(fictional),nor i can pick him,I can just stick with 'real' him"...

I wish everyone in the world,atleast,try to emulate this..so that i can crow "I have done my bit"

In the end i would like to quote my favourite line these days..
Life is always a battle between memory and forgetfulness.What we care to remember and what we prefer to forget is often a measure of who and what we are...
:)
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