November 17, 2011

PLEASE~-~ ""SEND IT TO ME""

Hey guys, its been a quite tiring day for me today. My legs and back were paining like hell since i came back from the college but just one, only one line came into my mind form nowhere and now i am ready with my yet another poem with all my pain in ""vain""...hope you all like it...Its called ""SEND IT TO ME"". ;)

Send it to me the star that you dream on,
  i will make it fall for you.
Send it to me the mirror that you peep on,
  i will make it smile for you.
Send it to me the flowers that you hold on,
  i will make them dance for you.
Send it to me the dark of your closed eyes,
  i will make it light for you.
Send it to me the pillow of your mornings,
  i will make it sing for you.
Send it to me the first hug of your morning,

 i will make it forever for you.
Send it to me the grass that you walk on,
  i will make it rose for you.
Send it to me the credence of your world,
  i will make it believe in you.
Send it to me the cactus of your heart,
  i will make it bleed for you.
Send it to me the ""Sahara"" of your life,
  i will make it ""Cherrapunji"" for you.
 
After all of that you have send it to me, at last,
   Send it to me the weight of your heart,
   that at any time broke you apart,
   In the presence of moonlit dreams,
   i will throw it in the deep sea beneath,
   i  will set it all ablaze,
   i will make it swept by waves, and
   ""we"" will see it go down in vain,
   that will take all of of my pain, and
   i could finally say it proudly,
   the love of my life didn't go in vain...!!!!

I hoooooooooooooopppppppeeeeeeee youuuuuu alll liked it....Thanks for reading. Until next time, its be from my side. Take care and be good..!!!








November 12, 2011

OUR ""ONE"" MINUTE..!!

 Hey everybody, my previous post was kind of very serious. Isn't it? Well, this post is about the thing about which my friends say i am expert in and i.e about love. Its a poem that i'd wriiten a long time ago while tinking about someone. I found it craving for rehabilitation so i decided to post it. Read it and please tell me you liked it or not. I wish you miss someone after reading this.

I woke up in the morning and found you in my head,
I messaged you instead, and
slept again by my bed.
In the process,
I set the alarm,and
after a minute,
i heard it getting unarmed .
I wondered i'd set it some wrong, so,
I checked in and pressed on, and
found out i'd been dead for since a hour long..!!

 ^-^                             ^-^                                    

Out of the blue,
in my head comes a thought new,
that also surrounds just you, and
told me i was with you.
From the past 1 hour on the world clock, or
I should rather say,
from the past one minute on ""our"" world's clock,
we were living our life together,
in the dreams only ours,
in the quilt only mine,
in the eyes only yours..!!


I woke up finally still with you in my head,
I messaged you all my smiles,and,
you gave me all your kisses,
though only for a while. :p
I talked to you and you talked to me,
I said i love you and you said you love me too.
I texted i miss you and you texted you miss me too..!! :*





Now its evening, and
I am talking to you,
but still i am missing you.
I am sitting with no one around,
but still i find you all around.
With my head up or down,
with my eyes close or shut,
with my ears open or deaf,
with my heart throbbing or still,
I feel you, i miss you and i love you...!!!


I hope you all liked this. Well, until next time its bye from my side. Take care and be good...:)))

November 10, 2011

OUT OF HEART'S NATION!!

Right from the starting of our lives we crave to be in the angel's lap. We all come across many people in life, individually or simultaneously, who act as ""the one"" for us. The first angel that we come across in our life is our mother. The first person who resides in our ""small"" heart is her. I think as we all grow up, maybe the size of our heart goes big, so the number of angels residing in it. The reason why i am writing all this because i remembered an incident where a son graduated from IIT murdered the first angel of his  life for second , later angel!! What a pathetic son, human being he is. Sometimes when i am alone and think of this incident, i try to feel the last 5 minutes of the old angel's life. All her life she has lived for this moment, to see her own son ending her for ""nothing"".



This one incident gives me the reason to think negative and also the reason to write this post, positive for sure. Today's post is about my perception on ""BLOOD vs BOND"" i.e blood relations VS non-blood relations in our life.
  I think all of you must have watched the movie ""Kaminey"" starring Shahid Kapoor. Remember? If you haven't then you should. We all know the depth of truth in the cinema that Vishal Bhardwaj(director) presents infront all of us in all of his movies. The lesson the movie gives us is somewhat important but unnoticed by many. It tells us that no relation is above ""blood relation"".
We all come across many cases where we see the mother/father/brother/sister being hurt to the greatest extent and sometimes removed for someone out of heart's nation. I agree that the ""SHAITAAN"" inside us that wakes up for a small duration of time makes those good people culprits for which most of them regret for most of their lives. But, can't we stop that Shaitaan? I am trying to say that yes, we can, by just a lucid thought.

There's no doubt that there's someone divine that gives us two most important things in our life i.e mother and father. Out of the 7 point something billion people in this world we have only one mother, one father and few siblings.Right? And how many friends do we make in our whole lifetime? There's no limit to that thing in particular in the same way there's no limit in getting attached to people out of our heart's nation.A mother once lost is forever lost. No matter how hard we try we can't replace her with anybody else. Wo kehte hai na sab duniya ek taraf aur ma ek taraf. But, one friend can be replaced by other, one gf/bf with other, actually that is the trend that's been followed all over the world. Isn't it?

Think and try to go more deeper in the thought, i bet you'd realise the hidden unnoticed truth of life that exists in it.
""Shaitaan originates and kills, we can  kill it by thinking deeper not only about the consequences of Shaitaan but also the hint of truth that resides in its origination.""

 Until next time its bye from my side. Take care and be happy and help all those fighting with this Shaitaan by sharing this post..!!! :P
 






November 6, 2011

PROMISE I Didn't KEEP!!

I know it has been almost 4 months since i opened this blog. As my mother is away today to be with my sister and my friends in college to be with studies even on Sunday, i am here, alone in my room and thinking. As i was going through all the posts that i'd written on this blog that i claim to love so much, i found out that i actually loved it shortly. Over the past 4 months, each day i crave to write something, some thoughts that ping out of my head from nowhere but i didn't. Sometimes the reason was that i have to get of my bed and pick a pen & paper to jot the thing i love. Sometimes the reason was that i was too busy with my mobile in one hand and books in other that i thought to give my thoughts a shit! But these thoughts are never worth giving a shit. They were something else!!

Each day of my life i fight with my inner self. Each and every single day i am trying to find me. For once, i find me being in full control of the actions i do and thence i find myself being totally out of control. I know how does it feel to promise someone to get the best marks in class and failing in it. What it does to me, it made me think before i promise and that really sucks.What it does, it also made me clear that before promising someone, promise yourself because it hurts more deeply to fall in your own eyes rather than falling in someone else's. The same is the case with this blog too. I promised and i succumbed by thinking that i am busy! I know how does it feel to be rejected & i know how does it elates to be accepted, i know how does it hurt to fail badly & rise sharply, i know how does it pinch to be betrayed & trusted by the best. I know everything that a man could ask for to turn a table of goods towards himself.

Anyways, this first post is going quite heavy for me & for you as well. So, i'll jut end it up here. There are loads & loads of thing to tell you all. I hope you all will love me even more than you loved me before. I am a changed man now. Earlier i used to dream with my eyes close, now i am craving to live my dream with my eyes open. Promises will be kept this time. To start with, i am studying the subject i hate i.e FED.
 :))

A quote from my notebook-
     Promises does not want only to be fulfilled, they actually want to be tried to fulfill each time we fail, with more stringent force than before.
 









July 5, 2011

NEUROFIBROMATOSIS!!

Today i want to introduce you a kind of disease that by no means is ordinary. I came to know about this disease via television.It moved me into tears when i looked at the condition of the people suffering from it. There's very little what we can do about it but we can do one or two important things for sure, praying for them and accepting them as a part of our society. 


Neurofibromatosis (commonly abbreviated NF; neurofibromatosis type 1 is also known as von Recklinghausen disease) is a neurocutaneous syndrome that can affect many parts of the body, including the brain, spinal cord, nerves, skin, and other body systems. NF can cause growth of non-cancerous tumors on nerve tissue, producing skin and bone abnormalities.





NF is defined by tumors, called neurofibromas, that grow along nerves in the body or on or under the skin. As the tumors increase in size, they can press on vital areas of the body, causing problems in the way the body functions.
Neurofibromas often first appear in childhood, especially during puberty. NF is occasionally diagnosed in infancy (in children with more apparent cases), but more often in kids between 3 and 16 years old.
The first noticeable sign is almost always the presence of brown cafĂ© au lait spots. These distinctive spots don't hurt or itch and never progress to anything more serious than spots. They can be found anywhere on the body, though not usually on the face. Tiny ones — freckles — may be seen under the arms or in the groin area.
Of the two types of neurofibromatosis — NF1 and NF2 — NF1 is more common, occurring in 1 of every 2,500-3,000 births and affecting an estimated 100,000 Americans. It is also known as von Recklinghausen disease.

There is no cure for the condition itself, the only therapy for patients with neurofibromatosis is a program of treatment by a team of specialists to manage symptoms or complications. Surgery may be needed when the tumors compress organs or other structures. Less than 10% of people with neurofibromatosis develop cancerous growths; in these cases, chemotherapy may be successful.
Although there is no cure for NF, the Neurofibromatosis Association is optimistic there will be an effective treatment within the next five to ten years. For families with NF, genetic screening and counselling is available.

The Elephant Man!


Joseph Carey Merrick (5 August 1862 – 11 April 1890), sometimes incorrectly referred to asJohn Merrick, was an English man with severe deformities who was exhibited as a human curiosity named the Elephant Man.






June 16, 2011

In The Arms Of A Kid!!

The last published post went for all good with all my readers appreciating it. Well, thank you all of you for the generosity! But, don't you think i missed out something there? It seemed a satire too heavy on the mankind?
 So, this time, lets make this burden little less of a burden . We are gonna talk about "man", man wearing "one particular" non-satire uniform, the uniform of a kid!!


Well, if you ask anybody about the best phase of their life they would probably say, "When i was in the "arms" of a kid". You might be pondering what the hell does this mean? In simple words, it means the best phase of every human occurs when they were kids themselves. I bet you'd agree me on that. Don't you? The reason being everything seems to be a child's play when we were child ourselves. Everything, starting from our parents to an electricity poll, from a "ready to bite dog" to a "pacifier teddy", looks like a kid's slave and that is why we consider ourselves "in the arm of a kid" all the time.
See the kid alongside in the arm of a "skirt" ;)


But, as the time progresses nothing remains the same. All of us become the slave of this life which we claim to be ours. But, is it really ours? Well, i don't think so. We get buried down under the hopes of our parents and the society, the responsibility to live an "ironical" meaningful life seems so cunning that we actually end  up killing the "real" self that resides within all of us, the self that always want us to be in the arms of a kid and we end being called as "mature" or any other synonym. We live the life claiming it to be ours but actually succumbing it to the others! Well, that's how this life works, and we being its puppets have to live it.

 But, we humans, are very clever or, i would say, magical. Even though we know that we can't overlook our slavery what we do is that we take some time off it and go back in the golden arms of a kid. The time where a mature just wanna be a kid, just wanna act like him, just wanna do some stupid gross stuffs and make his own "real" self laugh with a loud roar. The laughter that needs no reason to originate and no reason to fade away.

The time that no one can take away from you is the time when you break-free from the chains of matureness and enters the world of a kid's arms, which i feel, is the best time of your life!

There's a kid lying within all of us. Don't let it die because if it does we are going to lose our own real property. Be a kid for some time even though you might be hanging with your last time. :p

I hope you all liked this. Please do comment and share your views with me, it really help me and i am sure, one day,  it will help the society as well! Until next time, take care and be good. ;)














June 14, 2011

MAN!!!

Well, if you google out the topic of my discussion you would find the whole lot of definitions but my personal favourite goes on like this, "A man is a bipedal primate mammal of the genus Homo(H.sapiens) that is anatomically related to the great apes but is distinguished by greater development of  the brain with resulting capacity for articulate speech and abstract reasoning, by marked erectness of body carriage with corresponding alteration of muscular balance and loss of prehensile powers of the foot, and by shortening of the arm with accompanying increase in the thumb size". 


Well,  i know many of you might not "completely" comprehend what this google guy is trying to elucidate (i don't understand it either) and the reason being that the above quoted lines aren't, in any way, linked to the human definition of "man". It is a medical definition and it lacks the basic element of the human life i.e the emotions.
No one out there reading this post is an infant to what emotions are. Well, i would rather say we are the "happy slaves" of these emotions. Don't you agree?

Now, since you have gone through the "google-medical" definition, i would also like you to go through the "naman-emotional" definition cum poem of a man! It may seem a satire to many of you but it actually is an "attempted" satire. ;)

Man clears his throat,
A single man playing with his power
but not his heart to "say".

Man bring his body,
but not his soul to "work".

Man bless for success,
but "dream" of failure.

Man respects Kalidas's "sheets",
but adores Gates's "computer".

Man is a "stringent" intruder,
but demands "soft" privacy.

Man is an "orchestrator",
but designs "destruction" for it.

Man can peep his shadow in the water,
but don't expect the water to peep in to him!

Man declares himself as a non-diplomat,
but actually he is himself the the life's biggest "irony".


Man is a "misguided" follower who climbs up with pain,
mountains of hopes heaped in his own brain.
Then, old age and experience,
lead him to his "self" death,
and make him understand,
after a search so painful, and so long,
That all his life he has been in the "wrong"!!



All these above lines define man in some way or other. Just like i tried to define him with the world of my experience, you can also do the same by posting your thoughts as comments wheather on FACEBOOK or the BLOG. Hope you like "naman-emotional" defintion of man. Waiting eagerly like never before for your comments over this one! Until next time, its bye from my side. Take care and try to avoid, a little, your "self" death. . .;)







June 7, 2011

I AM BACK!!!

It's been over a month or so since i wrote last. I don't know why but i wasn't feeling to, so i didn't. Well, many things have happened with my life since the last post. Some things totally blew away the cherry form the cake of my life and some things bring back the cherry with glittering red. Well, that's what called the real cake, isn't it?

Now, I am back. With my best friend i.e this blog.
So, here i am sharing a poem that i have written some time back(many of you might have read it).


I may be a loner, but
i am not a lofer.
I wish you BELIEVE it.

I may be a lover, but
i am not unloyal.
I wish you TESTED it.

I may be an atheist, but
believe in your words.
I wish you KNOW it.

I may be a winner,but
i am always beatable.
I wish you PROVE it.

I may be a coconut, but
i am easily  broken.
I wish you SEE it.

You may be breathing happily, but
I am happily breaking.

I may seem surrounded, but
i am generally crowded.
I wish you FEEL it.

I may be behind the window, but
i am always looking at you.
I wish you TASTED it.

I may be smilling, but
it is you in my smile,
it is you in my eyes,
it is you in my life.
I hope you look into my eyes, and then,
wish you to see my smile, and then,
win you to be my life!

For now,
I am simply looking at you, 
because,
I may be a LONER, but
I am not a LOFER!!

Ahaan..Hope you all liked it. Now for the next post i am gonna write something out of ordinary. Wait and watch.
Until next time, as i always say, take care and be happy. :))))





March 21, 2011

My FAILURE & MY DREAMS!!

Everybody has some dreams about their future. I don't. Weird, isn't it? I am a guy who loves to enjoy his present to the fullest, forgetting what happened in the past and what will happen in the near future.I live in present, sometimes it is beneficial and sometimes not! My uncle used to ask me a simple yet perplexed question quite often, with all the sincerity, that where do i find "Naman Bansal" after 5 years? I tried to answer him, with the sincerity level aiming to touch his, but couldn't! I smiled, feeling guilty but not ashamed. There's a minute difference between guiltiness and shamelessness. The former occurs when you know that you could have done a thing but you didn't, and the latter occurs when you didn't even bother to do a thing, without even thinking that you can do it or not! Earlier, i find it really tough to think that whether i was guilty or ashamed? I was guilty.
I can answer it now!!

Today i wanna tell you a story. The story of me and my failure!

Going back to the past, i joined this BRILLIANT TUTORIALS in class 11th which aim to provide quality preparation to the aspiring kids for IIT exam. Seriously speaking, i was doing pretty nice there. Though i was not amongst the topper but i was giving the so called "toppers" a run for their money as well as marks. My physics teacher, Mr.Harsh Kumar always used to boost me up by portraying me as the future IIT cracker!
 I was pretty happy that i will make it. I studied hard and even harder! But as soon as i came in class 12th, the things changed quite horribly.I was finding it hard to score marks, to understand the elementary operations. The things that seemed quite lucid in the first year are suddenly the "hardest" thing in the world!
To make worse worst, a girl entered my life. Apart from my mother and sisters, girls have always been disastrous for me. She struck when i never wished to. But yeah, she did. In the last two months before my competitive exams, i didn't study with the passion i should. And, that shook me badly and ultimately i ended up in NON-IIT college!! That was the time when everyone started blaming me and i started blaming myself!
But, i never felt ashamed because i always know my worth and what i am capable of. I was guilty, i am still guilty and for that "one mistake" of mine i will always remain guilty forever my life!

But, the lesson learnt during that phase of my life is highly admired by me now in a way that today i am thinking about my dreams. In my next post, i am going to tell you all some mandatory dreams that i possess.
The dreams that i'll make reality. Until next time, its a bye from my side. Take care and be good!

Leaving you all with one quote about dreams.

"Dreams are like winds, sometimes they blow heavily across our head like a storm , sometimes they crawl like a calm, but they are always there and without them we cannot even "dream" to exist"

March 18, 2011

MY ACTIONS AND YOUR WORDS!

Today i wanna write! Yes, i want to. My last two days were very nice, as i enjoyed with all i had in my college fest. But the enjoyment ended pretty soon when one mishap happened that shook me quite badly. I can't share it with you all, but yes there's one thing i can do and that is to write a song cum poem that me and one of my friend have been fantasising and preparing in our head since a long time! A song of memory, imagination, and ofcourse hope!

I know i was never right, but,
the feelings inside me were never wrong.
I never kept up my words,
as the thoughts inside me never kept up with me!

Though you never asked me to leave,
but your actions said much more then to leave.
So i am going to a place,
where i can be all alone,
a place where memories would look to escape,
a place where shadow will leave the soul,
a place where you will never look me for!

And if one day your heart will fall for me,
you'll only be left with with your dreams to look me for!

I know i was never right, and,
when i am gone,
just ask your mind to forget me,
just ask your thoughts to leave me, and,
just ask your heart not to love me!

But, somewhere, somehow,
i feel that you can't,
and that day when your heart will fall for me,
you'll only be left with your tears to look me for, and.
you'll only be left with "you" to regret for!!

But, still,
I'll be waiting,
with the door wide open,
for us to reopen,
the chapter of love and life that was always meant to be open!!

Hope you all like this. In this song without music, the contribution goes to my friend as well to some people who actually inspired me to write this today!! Until next time, its bye from my side. Take care and be good!!









March 13, 2011

AS IT IS-CRYING!!

I don't know how to start this post. I don't know what i am thinking at the moment, but all i know is that there's some weird feeling building within my "moral" self that's been tempting me to do something immoral. So, here i am, trying to extract some sanity from "presently" ever growing insanity in my head!

Sometimes, we don't know for what reason we are sad,  we want to cry! This happens with everyone, even with me. I am not a person who cries too often, but i do. Some people believe that boys do not cry and if they see a boy crying they might paste comments like, " Are you a girl, dude? " and many more related questions!! I just wanna tell such people "Boys are also humans and they cry too". If they could laugh out loud, they can also cry out loud and if they can make you laugh out loud, they could also make you cry out loud too.

In this "attempted" poem of mine, i am portraying the power of something called as "Crying". Here it goes.

I am a boy,
moving  home happily,
meeting all friends blissfully,
creeping in sinfully, and,
smiling out loudly!

Sitting alone fixed like glue,
out of the blue,
comes the intruder new,
i tried to fu** this water back inside, for,
i just wanna hide this salt water!

I went back in the past,
thinking of the earlier blast,
that broadcasted my sincere aghast, but,
bypassed my aghast "fast" !

Soon i came back to this life,
i realised this water's might.
In this white salt water room,
i decided to actually bloom.

The salt water is now gone, and,
i get a new change on.
The old mask has fallen down, and,
i get a new crown!


Hope you all like this. In the end i just wanna say that we all want to cry, someday, sometime, without reason or with any reason. Go on, cry, cry out loud. But always remember one thing before you actually start to burst. "Never let your precious tears get wasted on someone who won't be with you when you stop crying, cry for your own good, never for creeps"...

Until next time, its bye from my side.Take care and be good!! This post might not be that good as others were, but i just wanted to speak to someone who will never "ignore" me.









March 4, 2011

START LOVING IT!!

In the last week i was in the kind of "copyright" mode, pondering more and writing less on paper. First of all, i wanna thank you all for appreciating my "attempted" ode to all the mothers!
Today, what i am gonna write is the thing that i have been chewing over the whole week, searching for the time to chew it out So, here i am to chew it out and loud! Umm. Maybe. ;) 

A secret-teller might be your best friend or best enemy. Luckily, there are few people in my life to whom i am a secret-keeper and they call me their best friend or their brother! They usually ask me a question that i will  tell you later on. Before that, go on and read this poem!! Three-fourth of this poem is true and the rest is fiction! "I" in this poem is not "me" (remember), but someone close to all of us or maybe us!

Sitting alone in the quilt,
dreaming of all we did built,
looking to all we did miss,and,
dreaming of all we did kiss.

You said, 'Two can't be one' ,
i said, 'I am zero and you are one'.
You said, 'How can you be zero?' ,
I said, ' I can, for i just wanna be your hero'.
You said, 'Move on'.
i cried, but,
"virtually"
I moved on!

Thinking that this earth is round,
"As told" ,
Everything takes a round,
i was actually on the same place,
waiting for you to take some pace, but,
what the hell did i face?
Just another ignorant phase.

Wondering if Columbus is wrong,
I started to "actually" move on,
soon realising that he was right,
as i find the girl right, and,
as i find this earth's might, and,
as i find this "life" bright!
;)

I hope you all like this poem. Actually there's a secret incitement behind this poem! Remember, i told you that I'll tell you about the query that my life-drivers used to ask me? The person we like do not like us back.Why?(Remember, it is just an example). The answer is simple.
Earlier i used to shit this question off, but one day i realised that this question is not worth shit. There's a point in everyone's life when we feel that why the hell we are on the tossing list of  life. We curse this life, God, etc etc. The way we are tossed up and down may include minor and major issues .Some of them may be related to Love, studies, family, unrecognisable loneliness etc. The reason why i chose "love" as the topic of my poem is also very lucid. It's because love is the thing with which we relate ourselves very easily and with fast emotions!

The life never screw us up, it might be a strict teacher but always a good companion that is making us stronger and harder with every passing second. While we are busy cursing this life during the time of a small rough patch, what we forget is the fact that after this phase of life what we do achieve is "gem" of a thing! The thing of a life time! A single "no" of insanity is not always insane, it might be "yes" for myriad sane things! The things which we gonna enjoy for the rest of our life!

"LOVE" life the way it comes, don't try to control it but to amend it, since this life is not only a stringent teacher but also the faithful and never ending companion! Until next time, its bye from my side. Take care and
love to live this life..

February 22, 2011

HEAVEN-HEAD IN HER LAP!!

This poem is straight from my heart and dedicated to all the mothers in this world!
I strongly believe in an old/gold saying that the day god made women everything become footloose, but the moment i think of "any" mother as a women, this saying eradicates pretty soon!! Really, this's another enigma that i "choose" to memorise. No matter you do believe in the mentioned saying or not, you cannot amend with the explanation. :)  Well, the poem goes on like this.Enjoy!

Kicking around in her womb,
eyes close and without a wound,
sleeping in and tickling out,
smiling in and blushing loud!!

Jovial tears dropping down,
looking at those colour brown,
caring for that gentle frown, and,
acting like a serious clown!

Once a home-queen,
Always weaving her embryo.
Never tired.
 turned photographer,
  once a wife,
    turned life,
     once"some" taker,
      turned "all" giver!!

Embryo shouting when turned seed,
wondering why does she pay heed?
soon realising what she need,
it's the embryo or the seed!!

Mr.Seed gone away,
in a land far away,
to get some good pay, but,
she is walking down by the bay,
ruminating her old embryo,
ALL THE WAY!

She is grey,
but still alive, for,
she can never die, coz,
 she was the first thing for which we actually cry!

Her lap is my heaven ,
 and her heaven is my destiny.
Her cry is my wound ,
 and her wound is my breakdown!

She was my life,
she is my life, and,
she will be my life ,
ALWAYS!

In this poem i tried to present one story, and i really don't care if i succeed in that or not.
Hope you all like this, thanks for reading, and we  hurt our respective mothers in some way or the other, but i know we all love her the most in this entire world, like the way i do. :)
Until next time it's bye from my side.Take care.And keep loving your mother more and more and most!!









    












February 19, 2011

MELTED YOU AND MY LOVE!!

OK, so someone anonymous is ready with yet another "song" or "poem". I am quite perplexed to regard it as a song as i cannot add music to the miraculous lyrics it possess on the blogging site, sadly, so will have to recommend it as a "poem". Enjoy!

Wish you were here,
wish you were mine,
wish it never started,
if it does,
wish it never lasted.

If she think i am happy,
she might be right,
if she think i am living,
she might be right.
for i think she's always bright!

But, what if,
i am just,
living a life full of fuss,
living a life without luck,
living a life full of hurts,and,
living a life without love?

Wish you ever felt the same,
wish you ever showed the same,
wish it never hurted her,
if it does,
wish it always melted her!

If she pretends she's living,
she won't be right,coz,
she's just,
living a life full of regrets,
living a life heartless,
living a life full of threats,and,
living a life loveless!!






Thank you all for reading yet another "weird" "song" without tune.
Take care, be good, and keep on smiling!






February 18, 2011

ANGER'S LOVE!!

People say i am moody, i wanna ask them aren't you?I am a person who has multiple "non-understandable" mood swings, again i wanna ask you all that do you understand why does your mood takes a turn? I am sure, you won't !!

I think every person thinks that his/her mood change is faster than anybody else, i think the same for me too.
Sometimes when i am laughing out loud at the Nth second, what i perceive is that i am crying out loud "in" (N+1)th second. Really this is an enigma with my life (if not yours) and i am gonna try to solve this unfold mystery before the completion of my path of 360 degrees(hope i do so:)) !

Well, this post was not about swings, the way it is going on so far, but about one particular "mood" i.e anger!
What is anger?  In lucid words, it is "a strong feeling of displeasure or hostility".  Ummm..maybe. But i am not too sure about this definition.

People get angry about something, and the outcome may be destructive, sometimes mental and sometimes physical or "substantially" both. But why do we get angry? The cause of this anger is only displeasure? Or something else?
Let's try to find this out!

I am a guy who's very "short tempered". I get irritated of the things very fast and due to which my anger takes a conspicuous eruption. But, there is one thing that's monotonous about this eruption and that is "The spurt of this eruption has always been on those people who are dear to me and whom i love more than my life". My mother, my sister, or my "close" friends have tasted this side of mine.Yes, only them!
I, sometimes scream at my mother, hurt my sister, say something fishy to my best friend and this list is an endless tale of "displeasure content" But, do i really mean them? Do i really wish to hurt my mother or my best friend or my sister? NO, never. Then why do i do such things??



The reason of this is also quite simple, it is because i "love" those  "eruption bearers" and i think those bearers are actually my real "Heroes" ! And i know that no matter i shout at them or slap them(mentally), they are those people who won't leave me ever, mentally, though physically they can. In my case this is not anger's hatred, this is "anger's love"!!


Wrangling but always together:
So, the next time if you see someone like the above mentioned "him" getting erupted over some stupendously stupid serious reason, it might actually be a way of showing you his love and care!!So, get angry, and, get loved!
Until next time, it's bye from my side!Take care and be good!!












February 17, 2011

" ACTUALLY CRUEL"..!!

As i have said earlier that i am not really obsessed with rhyming, but it seems that i am going to be "rhyme obsessed"  pretty soon!!
Well, i just hope you all enjoy this another "attempted weird" poem about our loving yet "actually cruel" world!

Cruel people and cruel world,
what are we doing in this fu**ing world,
sucking blood and breaking bond,
is that how the matter bond?

Cruel lessons of weird life,
slaying our neck with a sharp knife,
 are we are living a wildlife,
is that what we were born to die?

Killing people and called butchers,
killing trees and called developers?
eating animals and called cook,
that's why this earth shook?

Loving and killing side by side,
we are living a fake life,
that's why we do hide,from,
unanswerd questions of this cruel life!!

Many questions arise daily in my mind about life that can never be answered. There is a teacher to solve the unanswered queries of our respective subjects, but where will i find a teacher  to solve my "yet" unanswered questions? I wonder, but that is what others wonder!!




Take care, be good and keep on smiling..




February 15, 2011

LOVE ARROW!!

OK, so i do not know why the hell i am writing this "kind of" weird poem, but yes i am writing this!!
In this, i have tried to use some rhymes(thinking that i may actually use them,lol). Don't know you will like this or not, but if you don't do, please do laugh on me and please do forgive me also.:D
 It is just an attempt of doing something wacky with rhyming, because i don't know why but rhymes always irritates me!Weird na?Anyways,Enjoy!!


Oh baby,I am,
Looking at you so intently,and
thinking of you so deeply,and
dreaming for you so madly,and
loving you too so badly!

Seeing your precious glasses,
i lost all my senses,
please wear those lenses,
that's the way i love it.

Having goosebumps when you smile,
searching for the place where you lie,
Do you know where i lie,
it's on your phone line!

Smile, smile, baby smile,
that's the way you look nice,
i won't let you get slice,coz,
i am there by your side!

Eat, drink and enjoy,
in your smile is my joy,and
i know u very shy,
but please baby,
don't you ever cry!

Midnight winter,
hand in hand,
i want you to understand that,
i wanna be your baby grand!

Let the tornado meet the volcano,
that's how we can shoot the love arrow,
forget the past that's gone ago,
love this new Love arrow!!


:))))))))))).........:)))))))))))....
Until next time, its bye from my side....Take care and be good!!












February 13, 2011

HEAVEN'S HELL!!

The Earth is divided in three major kingdoms!First, the plant, second, the animals, third, the humans!
The datum tells us that the first two kingdoms are complementary to each other and they never really  required the third "human" kingdom to exist, actually!!So, the first question that popped to my mind is "What the f*** are we doing in the world that was co-existing quite well without us?" Another question that can never be answered just like my "Real" god mystery!!
But the truth is that we do exist(LOL, i am sure all of you are aware of that thing:))!!
But, another "sweet bitter" truth is this that we have made our own "hell' from our own "heaven" which i call heaven's hell!!
Today, what i am gonna tell you is about cruel "we" and the ill treatment we do with one of the most important "original ancestor" i.e the animals and wtf are we doing in the name of advancement and development.  Have you ever thought that who is the first consumer of those"multi-talented" diseases that always provide us with a short meeting with hell??  It is those animals who protect you from thieves, who give you calcium, who cry when you cry etc!!
Today, i am talking about animal testing in medical researches!!
 Animal testing should be outlawed because it is hurtful and not necessary. Do animals feel the same pain that we as humans feel? How do we know that other humans feel pain? We know that we ourselves can feel pain. We know this from direct experience of having your finger slammed in a drawer, or stubbing your toe on a chair.


It is said that pain is a mental event; something that can not be observed. Pain is something that is felt, and we can only assume that other humans feel pain from external indications such as our own like crying, screaming, or jerking away from something. If we can justify that other humans feel pain, why is it said that animals do not feel pain? When an animal is poked, burned, or stepped on; they will cry, yelp, or jerk away. Since the external indicators are the same, we can assume that animals feel the same pain that we as humans feel


How can someone that kills a dog in the middle of a street in broad daylight have repercussions to abide by but the companies that slowly kill animals with the tests that they perform on them not have any repercussions to pay? There are laws in place for the safety of animals that are on our streets or that live with us as companions, but there are no laws that say it is wrong for businesses to slice a dog open while it is still alive The animals can not tell the scientist that they don’t want to be tested on, but humans can. We need to talk for the animals and help stop this cruel and inhumane treatment. There are many other ways that products and medicine can be tested bt please the use of innocent animals is no longer needed.
We all are living in a world of fiction.The biggest of them is the existence of God.The reason why i am including "GOD" theory will get clear soon!Think, what if the animals become the master of this planet and they become the master of humans and they do such mind-numbing researches on us,what would we do then??Just think.

So, the next time you pick up a product at the store; look at the fine print before you take it to the cash counter to pay. Make sure that the products you use don’t support the inhumane killing of an innocent animal.The animal that is being killed for a shampoo that you are buying could be someone’s companion.


    In the end, i would like to see you this video also.It is heart breaking if you are an animal lover like me!
Until next time, its bye from mys side.
Take care..N be good!!!

February 11, 2011

SOMETHING ABOUT "YOU"!!

This's a poem cum song written by someone known yet "anonymous"..I hope you all will read this and would try to connect with your's "you"...

There is something about this wind,
every time it blows,
makes me feel "you" in "me"..
There is something about this sun,
every time it shines, 
gives a new life for "you" in "me"..
There is something about you,
every time you smile,
makes me feel lost in "you"..
Someone i admire is "you",
someone i look for is "you"!Baby, you!!

There is something about this rain,
every time it falls,
brings a new hope for "you" in "me"..
There is something about this night,
every time it comes,
fulfills my dream of life with "you"..
There is something about you,
every time you cry,
makes me feel lost in me.
Someone i want is "you",
someone i love is "you"..

Something about me
u don't know is,
I WANT "YOU"
Something about me
i want you to know is
I LOVE YOU!!
ALWAYS!!

This piece of not so "peaceful" heart is very dear to me, and i have dared to share it with you all.Hope you all like this!!!
Until next time, be good, be happy!!!

January 31, 2011

ONLY IF I HAD YOU!!!

This post is straight from someone's heart for an everlasting love that never really originated from the other side!!
But that heart still loves you!!

Was it you,
Or was it my dream where i had you,
Was it in my life,
Or was it a fantasy where i got you.

No matter what it was,
At the end,
It was you,whom i did everything for,
it was you,
whom i let everything go for.
At the end,
what i got is nothing,and
what i lost is everything.

Was it in my eyes or was it in my heart,
where i saw you,
Was it on my body or was it on my soul,
where i felt you.

No matter what it was,
At the end,
it was only you,whom i let my eyes look for,
it was only you,whom i search in my dreams for.

At the end,
what i got is nothing,and
what i lost is everything.

And, what i want is that
just look in my eyes for one more time, and,
you'll see the whole new world
for you and me,
the world where we can be all alone and alone....

I hope you all like this..Until next time it's bye from an "anonymous" heart..:)))..


January 30, 2011

ALL ABOUT MONEY !!!

The most common definition of money is:anything of value that serves as a (1) generally accepted medium of financial exchange, (2) legal tender for repayment of debt, (3) standard of value, (4) unit of accounting measure, and (5) means to save or store purchasing power.In common usage:Cash!!But in my case the definition is totally "out of the ordinary"!!

I am not really intersted in telling the merits of money.They are "copious", but there is one thing, that i think you all would agree on, of those myriad "merits", 99.99% are "OVER" materialistic!!In today's "money driven" world, the actual "moral" value of money has vanished.

Today we are judged  mostly by our financial status, by what we have achieved rather than what we are, and that thing is totally  incomprehensible to me!!
A small land in a big place is far more dear to us than a big place in a small heart!!
Today i am going to tell you about one of my thought that has kept me alive to this "covetous" life !!

I treat the "normal" human life as a question paper, even though we all hate it, there's no chance we can neglect it!!
Suppose a "normal" question paper has 5 questions of 20 marks each and the time to solve the paper is 3 hours..If a person knows all the questions very well but what he does, he spend about 2.5 hours in Q.1.He draw the lines, underline the important words and put mind blogging quotations, in short the examiner cannot give him any marks less than 20.But, he has just screwed up with the other 4 questions and also missed out the "requisite" query.Though he would get 20 marks in Q.1 but he would not score good or may even fail!!

That is how the life works.
It has 4 most important M's-

1-Materfamilias aka parents and family

2-Moral life

3-Money, to be precise "how to make money"

4-Marriage

These are those 4 questions that i think(at present,few others may add later), are the backbone of a "successful" life.And the first M is the "compulsory" question(for me atleast)!!
But, what we are doing is really threatening.We are only busy dealing, designing, caring, the third M..and doing that we are on the verge of "failing" the most important test!!My life experience tempts me to conclude that "jitna accha paisa nahi hona hai, utna accha paisa hona nahii hai"!!
What money has done is that it has made ourselves commit the most petrifying sins, killing, saying "cuss" things, neglecting our "inner self", and the list is an endless tail of terror!!
On my part, money is not gonna be the important question in my life, what i'v been trying to do in all these years of my life is  to make a good balance between these 4 questions and in no way the compulsory question would be neglected for a "material".After all, it is not always about money and getting honey!!

Until next time, it is bye from my side, and this post is an ode to my grandfather, who died recently.Hope his soul rest in peace!!
Take Care!!!








January 22, 2011

20 "HOT" "COOL" FRIENDS!!

It is turning out to be a friends week for me.My last three posts were "about" friends, and this one is "for" my friends.In this post, i am going to tell you about my 20 most precious friends and the relationship i share with them.All you guys are going to love this(hope so)because what i am going to write is "kind of" out of "original friends slot".I am going to reveal some of the hush-hush, not mine(genuine), of my friends.These 20 friends include people who are either with me now or were with me at some weather of my life.Before introducing you to my 20 friends, let me tell you how  i am gonna reveal those closet to you!!!


There are numbers from 1 to 20.Corresponding to each number there's a short contingent about that "numero" friend.What you need to do is to search for your number and also try to guess a friend corresponding to other one(not necessarily all) and get to know your's and others revealed "my perceptible" facts!!


1-You hit me with your incisive nails.Elder by birth but younger by choice!

2-Sometimes speak too much to piss me off and a "fake" speaker.Great sense of humour!

3-Emotionally numb and dumb.Anger of no use.Coward of  "simple" situations but still very lovable!"D.M.A"

4-"P"urely "p"assionate about writing.Very emotional!;)

5-"B****I".Afraid of cuss language!"B.T"

6-Very precious.6 months of friendship and at least 600 fights.Introvert!Lovable!

7-Had my best 5 months with you.Caring but a lier by choice.Selfish, but for my good!Wish i could have you..:(

8-Over thinking, book worm, sometimes selfish, but a "cute parasite" that has promised to accompany me till my death!

9-"College"+"B.T"+"Novels"+"Luthra connection"."B.T" friends you know who i am talking about!LOL!!


10-T.V.S, whisky, tube light, weird expressions, Adam Gilchrist fan, very helpful and caring!

11-College, no phone number, always ready to fight !


12-School, College, very cute "Dadi amma(as i say to tease you)", very sweet, Ranbir kapur jacket(Anjaana Anjaani)..:D:D


13-"Noddy", always smiling, epic sense of humour!
14-Never seen you get angry, very intelligent, "Accenture"!!


15-Only 2 years elder to me, share close secrets with me, extrovert, movie buff, "Accenture" !


16-My childhood friend.Had a marathon fight for 2 years."Mere saamne vaali khidki" !!


17-Never really talked to you when we studied together.Low on morale one day, facebook helped me in getting you high on it, love your criticism!!


18-My friend since class 7.A family.Can't see me cry,life unimaginable without you,my P.C and mobile mechanic!!


19-My "Gudiya" !!


20-"Like" every "Facebook" stuff."Backbencher" !!


So,guys this writing is purely for all of you..I hope you liked it.Until next time keep searching for your number!!Take care:):)








January 18, 2011

BUSTLING NIGHT!!

It is 2:30 am in the morning when i am writing this.The sleep is far away from me as i am really missing my mother who is out of station for a purpose!
The folklore with my life is that some very weird,wacky thoughts/queries ping the door of my mind when i am either asleep or about to be dead..Today my brain wave has knocked me down again with yet another noticeable notion which i feel is worth sharing!!So,here i go.

In this life of ours we all are driven by two responses to multiple different conditions..One is the emotional retort and other is the practical response!In similar situation different people evoke different responses differently for a different reason!!This verity is known to all of you so i won't go on elaborating this any further!

We all are driven by emotions,which are very necessary to have,but when overflown may also cause  burden to us,sometimes shed able and sometimes not!!You all know who is an "emotional" person and who is the "practical" one!But,still i want to tell you what exactly is the "kind of" definition of these two "responses" in my dictionary!
An emotional person is someone who is easily affected with or stirred by emotions. It is good to know ourselves and our personalities. Some people are more emotionally led than others, and knowing this can prevent lots of heartache and pain in life.I am a guy who falls in this category and have always paid heavily because of my inclusion in this list!Even if we do not fall into the category of an "emotional" person, we each have emotions and are in danger of being led by them. We may get up one morning feeling depressed and follow that feeling throughout the day.The next day, we may wake up angry,feling like telling somebody off - and that's what we end up doing. Other times,we may wake up feeling sorry for ourselves and sit in a corner crying all day long.I spent around two years of my life which were totally"stirred" with "overflown" emotions(no practical side) and that is the reason i am able to describe about only one type of response!!
Talking about the other side,i just know as much you all know!!Don't want replication of your thoughts so avoiding to describe the other side!!


In the end.i would like to tell you what i percive rather than what i percieved!!


"Wisdom always waits for the right time to act, while emotion always pushes for action right now! Emotionalism is rash. It calls for immediate action. While wisdom calmly looks ahead to determine how a decision will affect the future, emotions are only concerned with what is happening at the moment."


This seems more "practical", but unfortunately(or fortunately) i am still with the emotive side!


Keep hoping,be greedy,be good,be jealous but only to yourself!!