Everybody has some dreams about their future. I don't. Weird, isn't it? I am a guy who loves to enjoy his present to the fullest, forgetting what happened in the past and what will happen in the near future.I live in present, sometimes it is beneficial and sometimes not! My uncle used to ask me a simple yet perplexed question quite often, with all the sincerity, that where do i find "Naman Bansal" after 5 years? I tried to answer him, with the sincerity level aiming to touch his, but couldn't! I smiled, feeling guilty but not ashamed. There's a minute difference between guiltiness and shamelessness. The former occurs when you know that you could have done a thing but you didn't, and the latter occurs when you didn't even bother to do a thing, without even thinking that you can do it or not! Earlier, i find it really tough to think that whether i was guilty or ashamed? I was guilty.
I can answer it now!!
Today i wanna tell you a story. The story of me and my failure!
Going back to the past, i joined this BRILLIANT TUTORIALS in class 11th which aim to provide quality preparation to the aspiring kids for IIT exam. Seriously speaking, i was doing pretty nice there. Though i was not amongst the topper but i was giving the so called "toppers" a run for their money as well as marks. My physics teacher, Mr.Harsh Kumar always used to boost me up by portraying me as the future IIT cracker!
I was pretty happy that i will make it. I studied hard and even harder! But as soon as i came in class 12th, the things changed quite horribly.I was finding it hard to score marks, to understand the elementary operations. The things that seemed quite lucid in the first year are suddenly the "hardest" thing in the world!
To make worse worst, a girl entered my life. Apart from my mother and sisters, girls have always been disastrous for me. She struck when i never wished to. But yeah, she did. In the last two months before my competitive exams, i didn't study with the passion i should. And, that shook me badly and ultimately i ended up in NON-IIT college!! That was the time when everyone started blaming me and i started blaming myself!
But, i never felt ashamed because i always know my worth and what i am capable of. I was guilty, i am still guilty and for that "one mistake" of mine i will always remain guilty forever my life!
But, the lesson learnt during that phase of my life is highly admired by me now in a way that today i am thinking about my dreams. In my next post, i am going to tell you all some mandatory dreams that i possess.
The dreams that i'll make reality. Until next time, its a bye from my side. Take care and be good!
Leaving you all with one quote about dreams.
"Dreams are like winds, sometimes they blow heavily across our head like a storm , sometimes they crawl like a calm, but they are always there and without them we cannot even "dream" to exist"
I can answer it now!!
Today i wanna tell you a story. The story of me and my failure!
Going back to the past, i joined this BRILLIANT TUTORIALS in class 11th which aim to provide quality preparation to the aspiring kids for IIT exam. Seriously speaking, i was doing pretty nice there. Though i was not amongst the topper but i was giving the so called "toppers" a run for their money as well as marks. My physics teacher, Mr.Harsh Kumar always used to boost me up by portraying me as the future IIT cracker!
I was pretty happy that i will make it. I studied hard and even harder! But as soon as i came in class 12th, the things changed quite horribly.I was finding it hard to score marks, to understand the elementary operations. The things that seemed quite lucid in the first year are suddenly the "hardest" thing in the world!
To make worse worst, a girl entered my life. Apart from my mother and sisters, girls have always been disastrous for me. She struck when i never wished to. But yeah, she did. In the last two months before my competitive exams, i didn't study with the passion i should. And, that shook me badly and ultimately i ended up in NON-IIT college!! That was the time when everyone started blaming me and i started blaming myself!
But, i never felt ashamed because i always know my worth and what i am capable of. I was guilty, i am still guilty and for that "one mistake" of mine i will always remain guilty forever my life!
But, the lesson learnt during that phase of my life is highly admired by me now in a way that today i am thinking about my dreams. In my next post, i am going to tell you all some mandatory dreams that i possess.
The dreams that i'll make reality. Until next time, its a bye from my side. Take care and be good!
Leaving you all with one quote about dreams.
"Dreams are like winds, sometimes they blow heavily across our head like a storm , sometimes they crawl like a calm, but they are always there and without them we cannot even "dream" to exist"
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