OUT OF HEART'S NATION!!

Right from the starting of our lives we crave to be in the angel's lap. We all come across many people in life, individually or simultaneously, who act as ""the one"" for us. The first angel that we come across in our life is our mother. The first person who resides in our ""small"" heart is her. I think as we all grow up, maybe the size of our heart goes big, so the number of angels residing in it. The reason why i am writing all this because i remembered an incident where a son graduated from IIT murdered the first angel of his  life for second , later angel!! What a pathetic son, human being he is. Sometimes when i am alone and think of this incident, i try to feel the last 5 minutes of the old angel's life. All her life she has lived for this moment, to see her own son ending her for ""nothing"".

This one incident gives me the reason to think negative and also the reason to write this post, positive for sure. Today's post is about my perception on ""BLOOD vs BOND"" i.e blood relations VS non-blood relations in our life.
  I think all of you must have watched the movie ""Kaminey"" starring Shahid Kapoor. Remember? If you haven't then you should. We all know the depth of truth in the cinema that Vishal Bhardwaj(director) presents infront all of us in all of his movies. The lesson the movie gives us is somewhat important but unnoticed by many. It tells us that no relation is above ""blood relation"".
We all come across many cases where we see the mother/father/brother/sister being hurt to the greatest extent and sometimes removed for someone out of heart's nation. I agree that the ""SHAITAAN"" inside us that wakes up for a small duration of time makes those good people culprits for which most of them regret for most of their lives. But, can't we stop that Shaitaan? I am trying to say that yes, we can, by just a lucid thought.

There's no doubt that there's someone divine that gives us two most important things in our life i.e mother and father. Out of the 7 point something billion people in this world we have only one mother, one father and few siblings.Right? And how many friends do we make in our whole lifetime? There's no limit to that thing in particular in the same way there's no limit in getting attached to people out of our heart's nation.A mother once lost is forever lost. No matter how hard we try we can't replace her with anybody else. Wo kehte hai na sab duniya ek taraf aur ma ek taraf. But, one friend can be replaced by other, one gf/bf with other, actually that is the trend that's been followed all over the world. Isn't it?

Think and try to go more deeper in the thought, i bet you'd realise the hidden unnoticed truth of life that exists in it.
""Shaitaan originates and kills, we can  kill it by thinking deeper not only about the consequences of Shaitaan but also the hint of truth that resides in its origination.""

 Until next time its bye from my side. Take care and be happy and help all those fighting with this Shaitaan by sharing this post..!!! :P
 

PROMISE I Didn't KEEP!!

I know it has been almost 4 months since i opened this blog. As my mother is away today to be with my sister and my friends in college to be with studies even on Sunday, i am here, alone in my room and thinking. As i was going through all the posts that i'd written on this blog that i claim to love so much, i found out that i actually loved it shortly. Over the past 4 months, each day i crave to write something, some thoughts that ping out of my head from nowhere but i didn't. Sometimes the reason was that i have to get of my bed and pick a pen & paper to jot the thing i love. Sometimes the reason was that i was too busy with my mobile in one hand and books in other that i thought to give my thoughts a shit! But these thoughts are never worth giving a shit. They were something else!!

Each day of my life i fight with my inner self. Each and every single day i am trying to find me. For once, i find me being in full control of the actions i do and thence i find myself being totally out of control. I know how does it feel to promise someone to get the best marks in class and failing in it. What it does to me, it made me think before i promise and that really sucks.What it does, it also made me clear that before promising someone, promise yourself because it hurts more deeply to fall in your own eyes rather than falling in someone else's. The same is the case with this blog too. I promised and i succumbed by thinking that i am busy! I know how does it feel to be rejected & i know how does it elates to be accepted, i know how does it hurt to fail badly & rise sharply, i know how does it pinch to be betrayed & trusted by the best. I know everything that a man could ask for to turn a table of goods towards himself.

Anyways, this first post is going quite heavy for me & for you as well. So, i'll jut end it up here. There are loads & loads of thing to tell you all. I hope you all will love me even more than you loved me before. I am a changed man now. Earlier i used to dream with my eyes close, now i am craving to live my dream with my eyes open. Promises will be kept this time. To start with, i am studying the subject i hate i.e FED.
 :))

A quote from my notebook-
     Promises does not want only to be fulfilled, they actually want to be tried to fulfill each time we fail, with more stringent force than before.
 

NEUROFIBROMATOSIS!!

Today i want to introduce you a kind of disease that by no means is ordinary. I came to know about this disease via television.It moved me into tears when i looked at the condition of the people suffering from it. There's very little what we can do about it but we can do one or two important things for sure, praying for them and accepting them as a part of our society. 


Neurofibromatosis (commonly abbreviated NF; neurofibromatosis type 1 is also known as von Recklinghausen disease) is a neurocutaneous syndrome that can affect many parts of the body, including the brain, spinal cord, nerves, skin, and other body systems. NF can cause growth of non-cancerous tumors on nerve tissue, producing skin and bone abnormalities.

NF is defined by tumors, called neurofibromas, that grow along nerves in the body or on or under the skin. As the tumors increase in size, they can press on vital areas of the body, causing problems in the way the body functions.

Neurofibromas often first appear in childhood, especially during puberty. NF is occasionally diagnosed in infancy (in children with more apparent cases), but more often in kids between 3 and 16 years old.

The first noticeable sign is almost always the presence of brown café au lait spots. These distinctive spots don't hurt or itch and never progress to anything more serious than spots. They can be found anywhere on the body, though not usually on the face. Tiny ones — freckles — may be seen under the arms or in the groin area.

Of the two types of neurofibromatosis — NF1 and NF2 — NF1 is more common, occurring in 1 of every 2,500-3,000 births and affecting an estimated 100,000 Americans. It is also known as von Recklinghausen disease.

There is no cure for the condition itself, the only therapy for patients with neurofibromatosis is a program of treatment by a team of specialists to manage symptoms or complications. Surgery may be needed when the tumors compress organs or other structures. Less than 10% of people with neurofibromatosis develop cancerous growths; in these cases, chemotherapy may be successful.

Although there is no cure for NF, the Neurofibromatosis Association is optimistic there will be an effective treatment within the next five to ten years. For families with NF, genetic screening and counselling is available.

The Elephant Man!


Joseph Carey Merrick (5 August 1862 – 11 April 1890), sometimes incorrectly referred to asJohn Merrick, was an English man with severe deformities who was exhibited as a human curiosity named the Elephant Man.

In The Arms Of A Kid!!

The last published post went for all good with all my readers appreciating it. Well, thank you all of you for the generosity! But, don't you think i missed out something there? It seemed a satire too heavy on the mankind?
 So, this time, lets make this burden little less of a burden . We are gonna talk about "man", man wearing "one particular" non-satire uniform, the uniform of a kid!!


Well, if you ask anybody about the best phase of their life they would probably say, "When i was in the "arms" of a kid". You might be pondering what the hell does this mean? In simple words, it means the best phase of every human occurs when they were kids themselves. I bet you'd agree me on that. Don't you? The reason being everything seems to be a child's play when we were child ourselves. Everything, starting from our parents to an electricity poll, from a "ready to bite dog" to a "pacifier teddy", looks like a kid's slave and that is why we consider ourselves "in the arm of a kid" all the time.
See the kid alongside in the arm of a "skirt" ;)


But, as the time progresses nothing remains the same. All of us become the slave of this life which we claim to be ours. But, is it really ours? Well, i don't think so. We get buried down under the hopes of our parents and the society, the responsibility to live an "ironical" meaningful life seems so cunning that we actually end  up killing the "real" self that resides within all of us, the self that always want us to be in the arms of a kid and we end being called as "mature" or any other synonym. We live the life claiming it to be ours but actually succumbing it to the others! Well, that's how this life works, and we being its puppets have to live it.

 But, we humans, are very clever or, i would say, magical. Even though we know that we can't overlook our slavery what we do is that we take some time off it and go back in the golden arms of a kid. The time where a mature just wanna be a kid, just wanna act like him, just wanna do some stupid gross stuffs and make his own "real" self laugh with a loud roar. The laughter that needs no reason to originate and no reason to fade away.

The time that no one can take away from you is the time when you break-free from the chains of matureness and enters the world of a kid's arms, which i feel, is the best time of your life!

There's a kid lying within all of us. Don't let it die because if it does we are going to lose our own real property. Be a kid for some time even though you might be hanging with your last time. :p

I hope you all liked this. Please do comment and share your views with me, it really help me and i am sure, one day,  it will help the society as well! Until next time, take care and be good. ;)

MAN!!!

Well, if you google out the topic of my discussion you would find the whole lot of definitions but my personal favourite goes on like this, "A man is a bipedal primate mammal of the genus Homo(H.sapiens) that is anatomically related to the great apes but is distinguished by greater development of  the brain with resulting capacity for articulate speech and abstract reasoning, by marked erectness of body carriage with corresponding alteration of muscular balance and loss of prehensile powers of the foot, and by shortening of the arm with accompanying increase in the thumb size". 


Well,  i know many of you might not "completely" comprehend what this google guy is trying to elucidate (i don't understand it either) and the reason being that the above quoted lines aren't, in any way, linked to the human definition of "man". It is a medical definition and it lacks the basic element of the human life i.e the emotions.
No one out there reading this post is an infant to what emotions are. Well, i would rather say we are the "happy slaves" of these emotions. Don't you agree?

Now, since you have gone through the "google-medical" definition, i would also like you to go through the "naman-emotional" definition cum poem of a man! It may seem a satire to many of you but it actually is an "attempted" satire. ;)

Man clears his throat,

A single man playing with his power

but not his heart to "say".

Man bring his body,
but not his soul to "work".

Man bless for success,
but "dream" of failure.

Man respects Kalidas's "sheets",
but adores Gates's "computer".

Man is a "stringent" intruder,
but demands "soft" privacy.

Man is an "orchestrator",
but designs "destruction" for it.

Man can peep his shadow in the water,
but don't expect the water to peep in to him!

Man declares himself as a non-diplomat,
but actually he is himself the the life's biggest "irony".


Man is a "misguided" follower who climbs up with pain,
mountains of hopes heaped in his own brain.
Then, old age and experience,
lead him to his "self" death,
and make him understand,
after a search so painful, and so long,
That all his life he has been in the "wrong"!!



All these above lines define man in some way or other. Just like i tried to define him with the world of my experience, you can also do the same by posting your thoughts as comments wheather on FACEBOOK or the BLOG. Hope you like "naman-emotional" defintion of man. Waiting eagerly like never before for your comments over this one! Until next time, its bye from my side. Take care and try to avoid, a little, your "self" death. . .;)

I AM BACK!!!

It's been over a month or so since i wrote last. I don't know why but i wasn't feeling to, so i didn't. Well, many things have happened with my life since the last post. Some things totally blew away the cherry form the cake of my life and some things bring back the cherry with glittering red. Well, that's what called the real cake, isn't it?

Now, I am back. With my best friend i.e this blog.
So, here i am sharing a poem that i have written some time back(many of you might have read it).

I may be a loner, but

i am not a lofer.

I wish you BELIEVE it.

I may be a lover, but

i am not unloyal.

I wish you TESTED it.

I may be an atheist, but

i believe in your words.

I wish you KNOW it.

I may be a winner,but

i am always beatable.

I wish you PROVE it.

I may be a coconut, but

i am easily  broken.

I wish you SEE it.

You may be breathing happily, but

I am happily breaking.

I may seem surrounded, but

i am generally crowded.

I wish you FEEL it.

I may be behind the window, but

i am always looking at you.

I wish you TASTED it.

I may be smilling, but

it is you in my smile,

it is you in my eyes,

it is you in my life.

I hope you look into my eyes, and then,

wish you to see my smile, and then,

win you to be my life!

For now,

I am simply looking at you, 

because,

I may be a LONER, but

I am not a LOFER!!

Ahaan..Hope you all liked it. Now for the next post i am gonna write something out of ordinary. Wait and watch.

Until next time, as i always say, take care and be happy. :))))

My FAILURE & MY DREAMS!!

Everybody has some dreams about their future. I don't. Weird, isn't it? I am a guy who loves to enjoy his present to the fullest, forgetting what happened in the past and what will happen in the near future.I live in present, sometimes it is beneficial and sometimes not! My uncle used to ask me a simple yet perplexed question quite often, with all the sincerity, that where do i find "Naman Bansal" after 5 years? I tried to answer him, with the sincerity level aiming to touch his, but couldn't! I smiled, feeling guilty but not ashamed. There's a minute difference between guiltiness and shamelessness. The former occurs when you know that you could have done a thing but you didn't, and the latter occurs when you didn't even bother to do a thing, without even thinking that you can do it or not! Earlier, i find it really tough to think that whether i was guilty or ashamed? I was guilty.
I can answer it now!!

Today i wanna tell you a story. The story of me and my failure!

Going back to the past, i joined this BRILLIANT TUTORIALS in class 11th which aim to provide quality preparation to the aspiring kids for IIT exam. Seriously speaking, i was doing pretty nice there. Though i was not amongst the topper but i was giving the so called "toppers" a run for their money as well as marks. My physics teacher, Mr.Harsh Kumar always used to boost me up by portraying me as the future IIT cracker!
 I was pretty happy that i will make it. I studied hard and even harder! But as soon as i came in class 12th, the things changed quite horribly.I was finding it hard to score marks, to understand the elementary operations. The things that seemed quite lucid in the first year are suddenly the "hardest" thing in the world!
To make worse worst, a girl entered my life. Apart from my mother and sisters, girls have always been disastrous for me. She struck when i never wished to. But yeah, she did. In the last two months before my competitive exams, i didn't study with the passion i should. And, that shook me badly and ultimately i ended up in NON-IIT college!! That was the time when everyone started blaming me and i started blaming myself!
But, i never felt ashamed because i always know my worth and what i am capable of. I was guilty, i am still guilty and for that "one mistake" of mine i will always remain guilty forever my life!

But, the lesson learnt during that phase of my life is highly admired by me now in a way that today i am thinking about my dreams. In my next post, i am going to tell you all some mandatory dreams that i possess.
The dreams that i'll make reality. Until next time, its a bye from my side. Take care and be good!

Leaving you all with one quote about dreams.

"Dreams are like winds, sometimes they blow heavily across our head like a storm , sometimes they crawl like a calm, but they are always there and without them we cannot even "dream" to exist"

MY ACTIONS AND YOUR WORDS!

Today i wanna write! Yes, i want to. My last two days were very nice, as i enjoyed with all i had in my college fest. But the enjoyment ended pretty soon when one mishap happened that shook me quite badly. I can't share it with you all, but yes there's one thing i can do and that is to write a song cum poem that me and one of my friend have been fantasising and preparing in our head since a long time! A song of memory, imagination, and ofcourse hope!

I know i was never right, but,
the feelings inside me were never wrong.
I never kept up my words,
as the thoughts inside me never kept up with me!

Though you never asked me to leave,
but your actions said much more then to leave.
So i am going to a place,
where i can be all alone,
a place where memories would look to escape,
a place where shadow will leave the soul,
a place where you will never look me for!

And if one day your heart will fall for me,
you'll only be left with with your dreams to look me for!

I know i was never right, and,
when i am gone,
just ask your mind to forget me,
just ask your thoughts to leave me, and,
just ask your heart not to love me!

But, somewhere, somehow,
i feel that you can't,
and that day when your heart will fall for me,
you'll only be left with your tears to look me for, and.
you'll only be left with "you" to regret for!!

But, still,
I'll be waiting,
with the door wide open,
for us to reopen,
the chapter of love and life that was always meant to be open!!

Hope you all like this. In this song without music, the contribution goes to my friend as well to some people who actually inspired me to write this today!! Until next time, its bye from my side. Take care and be good!!

AS IT IS-CRYING!!

I don't know how to start this post. I don't know what i am thinking at the moment, but all i know is that there's some weird feeling building within my "moral" self that's been tempting me to do something immoral. So, here i am, trying to extract some sanity from "presently" ever growing insanity in my head!

Sometimes, we don't know for what reason we are sad,  we want to cry! This happens with everyone, even with me. I am not a person who cries too often, but i do. Some people believe that boys do not cry and if they see a boy crying they might paste comments like, " Are you a girl, dude? " and many more related questions!! I just wanna tell such people "Boys are also humans and they cry too". If they could laugh out loud, they can also cry out loud and if they can make you laugh out loud, they could also make you cry out loud too.

In this "attempted" poem of mine, i am portraying the power of something called as "Crying". Here it goes.

I am a boy,

moving  home happily,

meeting all friends blissfully,

creeping in sinfully, and,

smiling out loudly!

Sitting alone fixed like glue,
out of the blue,
comes the intruder new,
i tried to fu** this water back inside, for,
i just wanna hide this salt water!

I went back in the past,
thinking of the earlier blast,
that broadcasted my sincere aghast, but,
bypassed my aghast "fast" !

Soon i came back to this life,
i realised this water's might.
In this white salt water room,
i decided to actually bloom.

The salt water is now gone, and,
i get a new change on.
The old mask has fallen down, and,
i get a new crown!


Hope you all like this. In the end i just wanna say that we all want to cry, someday, sometime, without reason or with any reason. Go on, cry, cry out loud. But always remember one thing before you actually start to burst. "Never let your precious tears get wasted on someone who won't be with you when you stop crying, cry for your own good, never for creeps"...

Until next time, its bye from my side.Take care and be good!! This post might not be that good as others were, but i just wanted to speak to someone who will never "ignore" me.

START LOVING IT!!

In the last week i was in the kind of "copyright" mode, pondering more and writing less on paper. First of all, i wanna thank you all for appreciating my "attempted" ode to all the mothers!

Today, what i am gonna write is the thing that i have been chewing over the whole week, searching for the time to chew it out So, here i am to chew it out and loud! Umm. Maybe. ;) 

A secret-teller might be your best friend or best enemy. Luckily, there are few people in my life to whom i am a secret-keeper and they call me their best friend or their brother! They usually ask me a question that i will  tell you later on. Before that, go on and read this poem!! Three-fourth of this poem is true and the rest is fiction! "I" in this poem is not "me" (remember), but someone close to all of us or maybe us!

Sitting alone in the quilt,
dreaming of all we did built,
looking to all we did miss,and,
dreaming of all we did kiss.

You said, 'Two can't be one' ,
i said, 'I am zero and you are one'.
You said, 'How can you be zero?' ,
I said, ' I can, for i just wanna be your hero'.
You said, 'Move on'.
i cried, but,
"virtually"
I moved on!

Thinking that this earth is round,
"As told" ,
Everything takes a round,
i was actually on the same place,
waiting for you to take some pace, but,
what the hell did i face?
Just another ignorant phase.

Wondering if Columbus is wrong,
I started to "actually" move on,
soon realising that he was right,
as i find the girl right, and,
as i find this earth's might, and,
as i find this "life" bright!
;)

I hope you all like this poem. Actually there's a secret incitement behind this poem! Remember, i told you that I'll tell you about the query that my life-drivers used to ask me? The person we like do not like us back.Why?(Remember, it is just an example). The answer is simple.
Earlier i used to shit this question off, but one day i realised that this question is not worth shit. There's a point in everyone's life when we feel that why the hell we are on the tossing list of  life. We curse this life, God, etc etc. The way we are tossed up and down may include minor and major issues .Some of them may be related to Love, studies, family, unrecognisable loneliness etc. The reason why i chose "love" as the topic of my poem is also very lucid. It's because love is the thing with which we relate ourselves very easily and with fast emotions!

The life never screw us up, it might be a strict teacher but always a good companion that is making us stronger and harder with every passing second. While we are busy cursing this life during the time of a small rough patch, what we forget is the fact that after this phase of life what we do achieve is "gem" of a thing! The thing of a life time! A single "no" of insanity is not always insane, it might be "yes" for myriad sane things! The things which we gonna enjoy for the rest of our life!

"LOVE" life the way it comes, don't try to control it but to amend it, since this life is not only a stringent teacher but also the faithful and never ending companion! Until next time, its bye from my side. Take care and
love to live this life..